The Night Stories of Mine

kalian pasti sudah tau kan uan itu apa? yupperz.. UJIAN AKHIR NASIONAL!!! :O denger namanya aja sih nyantai gitu ya, tapi kalo udah mau ngalamin nya beuh.. deg deg nya ga ilang2 -_- aku pun mengalami hal itu. awalnya waktu kelas 7 aku kayak dont give a shit gitu sama apa yg namanya uan. jadi aku kelas 7 itu nyantai banget gak pernah belajar. jujur. -__- aku mikirnya masih kelas 7 aja jadi yaaa dibuat fun fun aja dulu. dan dulu juga sempet shock gitu kelas 7 rangking ku mrosot walaupun masih 10 besar tapi tetep aja. kayak sakit hati gitu yg biasanya 5 besar di sd eh masuk smp mrosot banget jadi 10 besar apalagi yg bikin nyesek kelas 7 smster 1 jumlah nilainya gak nyampe 1000. kalok inget itu rasanya ngerasa banget kalok aku begok banget -__- itu lah akibat kemalasan yg aku perbuat waktu kelas 7. tapi thats okay semester 2 nya aku jumlahnya udah nembus 1000 tapi ya tetep aja peringkat gak naik naik. dan yang aku paling inget, aku mesti gampangin pelajaran kelas 7. aku dulu sukanya mat...

to people in the world.. first, am i just too kind or something? if i get mad at people who has been hurting me, they wont say "SORRY" and i think thats okay if they dont even say sorry after hurting me with their words. i just DONT LIKE FIGHTING . i think they treat me bad, til they dont know what im feeling. OKAY second, i dont like seeing my besties tired of thinking how to cheer up my another friend, and hah.. she doesnt even know that my besties think bout that like a billion times. thats why, i never get mad to my besties, becos yeah i dont like seeing them keep thinking how to cheer me up. so.. to my besties.. if you are reading this.. im sorry that i always hide my feeling to you but tbh i dont like seeing you think bout that. third, i always thought about words "HILANG SATU TUMBUH SERIBU". is that true? i mean, if i lose one thing, i'll get billion things? but in fact, it really really not true.. why? i lose one my besties. then i lose it again. i...

mmm to everyone who knows me or not. im so sorry that perhaps ive been hurting you, or making you feel uncomfortable bcos of my behaviour okay sorry. from the bottom of my heart i say it again that IM SORRY!!. i dont know what im posting now, im just feeling guilty. I AM REALLY UPSET upset stiff i really cant handle this. why is everything making me feel guilty although i dont do anything?? stop doing this do i have to say SORRY for a billion times?? please.. can i just feel happy without a mess just for once in my life?

bestfriends are the ones who are not going to tell your secret to everyone but they feel your secret in their deepest heart.

umm so this is my blog and my first post, well im going to say HELLO!! :D im not willing you to read my blog but thanks for those who read this blog. i dont know what i will post again umm maybe about me? :D okayyy i'm rafida, im 14 while writing this. enough said :p  dont know when will i post again after this post, but ill try to post a shit soon . as soon as i can .  Have a lovely day guys! Cheers! Love, Rafida xxxx